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Sunday, December 9, 2007

‘小彗星’撞地球

小小的彗星撞地球了,撞进我的嘴巴里,留下了个大洞啊!!那天把后面的一颗牙齿拔掉后,嘴巴就有了个洞,怪怪的,好像少了什么似的。。而且嘴巴还是很痛,不能张得太开,不能哈哈大笑了。。所以只能嘻嘻酱笑。。嘻嘻嘻。。
在想啊,拔牙如果叫很小很小的手术,有一个酱的伤口了还痛那么多天的话,那那些动大手术的人不是会痛死。。哇,那我要身体健康不要生病了,最怕痛了我。
还有另一个‘彗星’落在吉隆坡,大马之眼!!!好想去哦,听说今年的最后一天就关闭不再动了。还没去坐过呢,不能关,不能关啦。。我的心愿就是在它关闭之前一定要去坐一次。。嘻嘻(^.^)
还记得小时候,因为在家了是排行老大,所以什么都要让妹妹。记得有一次爸爸妈妈带我们去fun fair,妹妹都有得玩,我只能在旁边看,因为爸妈说我长大了,要让给妹妹们玩,听了好伤心可是又不能说什么,只能在旁边看。后来爸妈有让我坐摩天轮,可是我赌气不坐。那就是小时候的我。因为那样,所以现在我特别喜欢去游乐场,可能是小时候没有玩够吧,虽然有时去那里只是看看,但也是好开心的。记得好像是今年的生日,有个暂时的小型fun fair,和朋友出去庆祝的时候偶然发现的,所以就下车看看了。有个小型的摩天轮,用人力控制速度的,和几个好玩的朋友就坐上去玩玩,哪里知道还蛮恐怖的,转得太快了,我们几个人在上面喊到喉咙都要沙哑了。。哈哈,好不容易不知道转了几圈终于停了,下来时脚都软了。真的不敢再坐这种cheap的摩天轮了,哈哈。几个没坐的朋友还在下面笑我们,真是过分哦。(-*-)不过那天真开心。
所以好想快快去吉隆坡玩哦。。



大马之眼


很漂亮吧。

Friday, December 7, 2007

拔牙..选择

哎哟喂啊,今天终于把蛀牙拔掉了,好恐怖啊,吓死我了,最怕就是去看牙医了,最讨厌了。
不过还好不会很痛,打麻醉针也不会很痛,不过拔很久呐,可能太大颗的牙齿了。
拔完后流了好多血哦,要咬着棉花,很久了还是很多血呐,等下流血过多就惨了啦。。T.T
真怕麻醉药散了后会很痛。。

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不用做选择了。没有开始,也没有结束。。
把所有想说的话都说出来真好,放松了很多,不用再去选择,不用站在十字路口中间,却不知道要走那条路。。
真好的感觉。。

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

开始vs结束

我应该选择开始?还是选择结束
我以为没有开始,就没有结束
站在开始结束之间,就是错吗?
没有想过要开始,更不想要结束
那我应该怎么做,才是最正确的选择?
我该怎样做?该怎样做?
谁来告诉我答案?
我不是痛苦,而是难过,就好像已经知道结果会是如何一样。。
不希望结果是我想的那样坏,那不是我要的结果。可是,如果我不做最坏的打算,那最后,最难过的会是我自己吧。
我应该做个坏人吗?难道之前所有的好都是错的?我应该在自私一点?
好乱。。一点头绪也没有。。
好烦。。一点办法也没有。。
本来选择等待,以为答案总有一天会出现。。
可是这么做好像错了,好像不是每个人都能接受。。
可是有必要在意别人的眼光吗?有必要在乎别人的看法吗?
但如果那些眼光,那些看法是为了我好呢?
我该如何选择?

胆小鬼

我真是个胆小鬼,很多话想说,很多事想做,可是就是不敢去完成它。
到底要怎样,才能让我自己变勇敢一点??
有些事,我总能站在在最前面的地方,坐第一个尝试的人,可是遇到某些事,我却会拖拖拉拉,不知如何是好。。
好像变勇敢,或许就会得到我想要的东西了。。

Thursday, November 29, 2007

AcciDenT

wah...so scary..yest nearly create an accident again..duno wat happen to me yest..like losing my soul..morning go jogging also very bad mood..no mood..blue mood..
same word appear in my mind,same thg keep appear...
on the way back home oso like duno wat had happen..i m driving my purple scooter yest..din drive my car..my mind is blank at the time when i nearly crash togather with a kancil..but..not my fault..that car seem like din see my scooter at that time..he is coming out from the roadside which at 1st he is stop at there and going to drive away..erm..so.it doesn't my fault..cause i juz follow my road but he is coming out suddenly..i duno y i din saw it..when i nearly bump against with it i juz realised it..luckily he din drive very fast..if not...omg..cant imagine..but i really get a shock so yesterday not dare to go out again the whole day..afraid myself driving with no soul..haha.
still remember in year 2005,i also meet an accident,but din get injured seriously..my small kancil bump against with a lory..wah..really 'keng' me..juz a small injured at my finger..luckily..
the big mirror in front of the car and the mirror at the side of the drive break into pieces..the car get more serious injured..-.-
i had keep some glass broken pieces..as a memory..erm...after the accident i cant sleep well for few day..always have the nightmare about the accident..omg..but nw feel better..the time fly so fast..two years pass...

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

傻瓜

我是傻瓜,很傻很傻,自以为事的傻瓜。
如果喜欢一个人会变傻,那我会选择不要去喜欢他。
可是,
我可以选择吗?
感情的事可以说不要就不要吗?
可以说不喜欢就不喜欢吗?
可以说停止就停止吗?
如果可以的话,那谁来教教我,不要再做傻事了?该醒醒了?
我是傻瓜,很傻很傻,每个人都说的傻。
我可以改变吗?
可以不要那么傻吗?
可以醒过来吗?
可以不要脑袋空空,不懂要做什么,好像一副躯壳。
我真的不会想多多了。因为不懂要想什么?同样的话一直飘过脑海,重复播放,一直重复,一直重复。。谁来帮我把这得播放机关掉?让它停止?要怎么做?
好想大哭一场了,但是眼泪不懂跑到哪里去了。。找不到。。
哭过后,可以雨过天晴吗?
好喜欢雨后的彩虹。。

Sunday, November 25, 2007

如果

如果所有的一切都没有发生,那我的世界会是怎样的呢?
如果我周围的人都没有出现过,那我会是一个怎样的人呢?
如果发生过的事都没有发生,那我的命运是否就会改变呢?
如果所有我想的东西是对的,那谁来告诉我有什么是错的呢?
如果我想的东西会发生,那谁来帮我阻止它发生呢?
如果 如果 如果 如果 如果。。。。。。
这么多的如果,我却没有答案。我要从哪里拿到答案?谁来告诉我答案?

每次有事,我就会想如果它没发生就好了,可是我能阻止这个如果吗?我不能,因为它已经发生了,我什么都不能做。有时候有些人会说,命运掌握在自己手里,可是,我好像都不能控制自己的命运。我想要的东西很简单,很平凡,但是总是得不到它。难道我的命运就要比别人不平凡吗?我要简单一点的东西都不能吗?那我到底要怎样??
有些人会说,想要的东西就要自己去追求,去争取,可是,如果那样东西注定不属于我的呢?我一定会争取到吗?我一定会得到吗?得到了后我会开心吗?我会幸福吗?又是一大堆没有答案的问题。

每次心情不好,就会有一大堆‘成年’的问题跑出来,平时开心的自己就会忘记这些问题,今天不开心,问题就来找我了。“不想见你们啦,不要来找我好吗?”

我不要难过。。
(T.T)

Friday, November 23, 2007

快乐的日子

这几天都很开心,到处走走,四处看看,什么地方都想去玩。那天才刚去batu pahat逛街,昨天又到了马六甲走走。哈哈,我还真会跑呢。
和另外三个好朋友去了马六甲的动物园,存、景、丽,真的是麻雀虽小,五脏俱全呢。什么动物都有,老虎大象长颈鹿,狮子猴子大猩猩。什么都有,跟我去过的国家动物园比起来,我觉得马六甲的好玩多咯,虽然马六甲的比较小,可是却可以很靠近地看见那里的动物,国家动物园太大了,动物的笼子很大,所以都没办法近近的看见那些动物。虽然觉得马六甲的动物很可怜,笼子这么小,可是我们可以很靠近它们,真是太爽了。长颈鹿真的好高哦,大笨象真的好大只哦。我们就好像小朋友一样第一次参观动物园似的。四个二十岁的大孩子。。哈哈
过后我们到马六甲的Mahkota百货公司走走,因为我想买过年的新衣。那天在batu pahat都没找到喜欢的。我们的午餐在Seoul Garden解决,真的是太好吃了,本来是决定跟芳她们一起来的,但是。。。。让她们知道肯定被它们砍成十成十块八块的。。:p
买了两件衣服,和一个包包,然后就回家了,回到麻坡,大家都还因为午餐的关系,没什么饿,所以只是去吃了几片蛋糕就回家了。
开心的一天就这样过去了。朋友有时这样联络联络,一起出去吃喝玩乐,真的是很快乐的享受。喜欢这样的回忆,喜欢这样的朋友。。

Saturday, November 17, 2007

Finish Exam

haha..happy...finally finish my 1st sem final exam...just finish yesterday...today alr back to hometown..so hapi n relax here...somemore can meet all my friend(but still haven go out with them today lah...too tired) almost everyone back already...some of them really long time din see ler...so miss them..hope can enjoy this holiday with them..haha..but me again to plan smthg to do ler gua..haha..i always the busy 1..
long time din bek ler since start exam..miss mum food(today eat a lot ler)..and many place at muar..this few day must go play ler lah...
after play juz see wat result i get..hope dun be too bad lah...if not nez sem no energy to continue..haha..
juz write till here cos nth can be write ler...
enjoy my holiday..(^.^)

Wednesday, November 7, 2007

recently...final exam..T.T

quite a long time din update my blog...recently is my exam week..so busy v my exam..
taking 7 subject this sem..total have 18 hour credit..quite many compare with my other frens..everyday having the class..so boring n sleepy..=.=
finally till the final exam..this is juz my first sem for my university life,and of cause this is my 1st exam(those small test not counted lah)..
alr sit for 3 subject start from laz fri day-2/11.
1st subj is hubungan etnik..actually don't know wat this subj is all about..haha..then get the tips from a fren..but i DIN BELIEVE THE TIPS 100%..whose know when the question come out..the 5 ques of the essay is TOTALLY SAME WITH THE TIPS I GET..omg..when i read the ques..i like goin to find a wall...even some of the objective ques are also the same...T.T
so regret i din read n memorised the ans seriously..haiz..
then my second paper is Tamadun Islam dan Tamadun Asia(TITAS)..This subj is really a very boring n very stupid subj..don't know why we need to take tis subj..always not understand wat the lecture say..totally not understand...
then this paper..more omg..senior keep remind us study the pass year paper..do the pass year paper..but i juz study 1 to 2 set..din finish somemore..u noe wat had happen..inside my exam paper nearly 90%of the ques is same v the pass year that i read..but i still din finish study it..really sh*t...
then the ques that i read some still ans wrongly..really stupid lah me...haiz..how to get A???
then the others dun lah..wait i finish juz c how..haiz..difficult ah..

During the exam,this few morning keep raining..then i get some interesting scene..cause of the TITAS exam is having inside the hall with around 100++ ppl, then on that day with the 'heavy' rain, outside the hall is full with umbrella..like selling different kind of umbrella..big, small, green, blue, yellow, cartoon,old fashion...many kinds of umbrella..really a rare scene..


that day goin out to meet my fren who stay here..since there is not bus on saturday so i need to walk to the main gate to take the bus(so far....it take about 20++ minutes..swt)..on the way near the gate i found another nice scene..the ground is full with flower..it look nice when see from far...a few day ago when i m on the bus to the way bek to hostle alr saw this flower(not sure the name) but not enuf time to take the pic so i take it on the day i m goin out..luckily the flower still there...

i like to take pic..hope can catch some picture with full of feeling when other ppl see it will feel touch with that..but 1st i need a camera..i like those slim type digital camera..duno start from when i alr hope can get a slim digital camera..cause i like to go travel..like to catch picture to save as memory...last time bought a canon digital camera..but get the wrong model..the 1 i buy not the type i like..nw Sony have two new model slim & stylish digical cam-T70 & T200(like it so much)..both almost the same..nw still thinking which 1 i would like to buy..my fren had juz bought T70..so envy him..i think i need to find a job when holiday so i juz can buy the cam..not cheap leh....mayb can ask mum support..haha..




Sony T-70
Sony T-200

need to study 1st..hav eto finish my exam juz can start to work mah..kampateh!!