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昨天遇到了一些小问题，这世界什么都是law law law..

这世界只要有白纸黑字才能为所欲为，才能大声说话？？

为什么要怕呢？难道我们没有言论自由？我们没有做坏事啊。。我们有权力使用所有公共的设施不是吗？所以又有什么权力赶我们走呢？

无奈，问号。。。

独立

这两个字的真正意识到底是什么？

是我不明白他们要表达的，还是他们不明白我的问题？

我想的不是要完全独立的问题，而是为什么从来就没有人像要让它自己长大，成长。

而不是什么有管制着，担心它会脱离原来的轨道。永远把它保护在羽毛底下，那要它以后如何去面对复杂的未来，困难的问题，如果有一天羽毛消失了？

不能让它慢慢的独立？就像照顾一个小孩一样。。总有一天他也是要自己面对他的未来，父母永远都不可能在他的身边的嘛。。小的时候父母会为他挡风挡雨，长大了呢？难道还要年老的父母在为他奔波劳累吗？

我只是觉得只要有好好的照顾，细心的关怀，从旁协助他们，给于的是意见，而不是决定。对的方法，就能产生对的东西。而不是处处的限制，担心着，担心那的。。

但问题总可以解决的，我要解决我面对的问题，我一定要。。

执著

为什么要执著？

执著的结果永远都是好的吗？

我觉得不是，总觉得执著只会苦了自己。

可以放下的就放下，可以忘记的就忘记，但很多人都做不到，有时连我自己都做不到。

尝试去做到，就会很快乐了。。

我要快乐，所以我一定要做到。。(",)

i m hapi..i m relaxing...

after i say wanna give up..maybe at first i will feel sad..but now i really enjoy ler.

i will give up..cause i don't want to make myself having the same experience before..i too care a person that i like..maybe smtime juz small thing..it also can affect me..maybe i dun like to being affected..so i wan run away from this..but i really dun1 to be affect even then person is the 1 i like..all the thg he do can make me smile,make me hapi,n of cos smtime make me sad..

after decide to give up..feel relax..after reading a book..it more strengthen my decision.the title is in chinese'happy,n open your heart'.

in the book..it tel me many thg to make myself happy..inside that got a sentence very meaningful for me.."a person come with nothing when he/she is born,and will also bring nothing when he/she is leaving this world"..so why should we always ask for the thing that may not belong to us??why people always want to chasing for the reputation,wealth,and other thg...do they can bring those thg away when they die???

so i juz wan to enjoy myself v the thg that i have.before i become so greedy..i also very enjoy the time when togather with him ah..but when i become more n more greedy..wan more n more thg..n when i cant get it..so i sad...

every1 have the desire to get many thg..that call greedy..i believe..when we wan to get smthg..we will sure have to pay out somethg 1st...so i dun1 to pay out all my hapiness..so i dun1 to be greedy..go bek to the origin..enjoy the feeling..

一个地方。。。

今天一早去了一个充满回忆的地方，好久没有早上去呼吸新鲜的空气了。应该很高兴的去那里，那里有很多很多我的回忆，喜怒哀乐，酸甜苦辣都在那里。所以我很喜欢到那里去。不管是开心还是不开心。。

今天会想要去那里因为不开心，真的不开心。可是去了那里，好像更不开心。。眼泪在眼眶里，我却不让它掉下来。

周围一切的东西都一样，一样的风景，一样的浪声，一样的微风，可是人好像不一样了。。喜欢这里的一切，所以才会喜欢到这里。。

喜欢这里的心情不会变，那喜欢一个人的心情呢？会变吧？时间久了就会忘记了吧。。应该会忘记的。。一定会的。。一定要忘记的。。

i give up..

好想哭，我放弃了，真的决定放弃了。。不想像以前一样，所以我放弃了。。

我很没有用吧。。我真的没有用，才过多久罢了，还告诉自己要等，才等多久罢了，但，等也没用吧。。

所以我放弃了，现在只想找个地方哭。。

今天

今天写着部落格，却想说说昨天的事。
昨天跟一的老朋友出来喝茶，真得很久没见了，有两三个月了吧。。我去新山，他去kl。每次出来都聊有的没的，昨天也不例外，不过昨天真的想很多，忽然觉得他懂了很多东西，虽然还是在执著着某些事。。。

他问了两个很有意思的问题，一个是，用四条连接的直线将下面这九个点连起来。












另一个问题是，用六条线画出四个等边三角形。两题我都猜不到答案。其实答案很简单。




























这两个问题其实是要我们往不一样的方面想。我们的想法往往局限在某个框框里。如果我们把我们的思想范围放大，就会得到不一样的结果。
虽然他会那么说，可是他还是在乎着同样的东西，像我一样，放不下。。像两个傻瓜一样。。
我们傻，昨天在聊着的时候，我们还在笑，像是在笑这可笑的世界，也像是在笑着可笑的自己。。我们常常在做着傻事，明明知道后果会怎样，还是一意孤行。有时受伤了，还是笑着说没事，舔一舔伤口，明天又是新的一天。因为我们只要身边的人开心，只要他们开心，我们就会开心。真的，只要你开心，什么都无所谓了。。
说了好像很伟大似的，不过我真的是这样想的。。。

Tired~

tired with all the thg 2day n some day b4...y i say 2day??..cos i dun1 to down again tmr..everyday is a new day 4 me...so..i wan happy...tmr..

smbody make me feel like he dislike me too close v him..hope wat those i think is juz wrong..mayb he juz dun1 to waste my time..mayb he wan me to be good when stay away fr him..but mayb smtime i can say i too clever to guess smthg..smthg about other ppl heart thinking..so..i stay away fr him..start fr today..n mayb end up sm other day...the day that hv evidence to prove my thinking is wrong...

staying at hostle whole day..doin nth but watching the movie...actually i got many thg 4 me to done it asap...but my mind thinking is too messy that make me cant do anythg..anythg tat i wish to done it soon..same ques pass through my mind...many thg...but no ans..

i wish to go home nw...that place juz the place to make me stay calm..my family..my close fren..

luckly i m goin home soon..two more day..

4get all the thg..i tell myself n my fren yest...dun care about it so much anymore..we r tired alr..

but..everytime i tel myself to do so..i sure cant make it...i think i shud change my attitude..stay away from all the prob..but can i????

asking myself so many time..blaming myself so many time..wat can i do??wat m i thinking actually???sometime..really lost myself..in a big big jungle...i m so scare..scare about the darkness..scare to be alone....

Great gather..

few day ago celebrate a new fren b'day here(jb)...
mayb tis is the 1st time so happy n so enjoy when 2gather v them..
play around din care any status any place that we all come from..any background.
y we din hv so fun time at 1st when we juz meet n bcom coursemate??
is tat really need time 4 us to find the way to hv a good communication??
o,we had fail to communicate in the good way at 1st...
but luckly we find it..n we r bcom close nw..hope it will b nth more unhappy thg happen anymore..in the future..

but miss all those day..v those old frens...
frenZ..how r u.????
take good care...
i sure will always find the chance to create more new memory v u all..
so we wont always b living in the memory..
treasure all the time v u all..
try to find as many time as i can to b with u all..
trying...
everythg..
cos wat that u all have gv me is more than wat i can gv it to u al..
really thx a lot..

mayb u all din feel so..but i understand wat frens did i meet..wat fren tat gv me a lot of thg...it not necessary is a real thg o a present..it is juz a feeling , a heart..a true heart that treasure me as ur fren as well as wat i done to u.