AcciDenT

wah...so scary..yest nearly create an accident again..duno wat happen to me yest..like losing my soul..morning go jogging also very bad mood..no mood..blue mood..
same word appear in my mind,same thg keep appear...
on the way back home oso like duno wat had happen..i m driving my purple scooter yest..din drive my car..my mind is blank at the time when i nearly crash togather with a kancil..but..not my fault..that car seem like din see my scooter at that time..he is coming out from the roadside which at 1st he is stop at there and going to drive away..erm..so.it doesn't my fault..cause i juz follow my road but he is coming out suddenly..i duno y i din saw it..when i nearly bump against with it i juz realised it..luckily he din drive very fast..if not...omg..cant imagine..but i really get a shock so yesterday not dare to go out again the whole day..afraid myself driving with no soul..haha.
still remember in year 2005,i also meet an accident,but din get injured seriously..my small kancil bump against with a lory..wah..really 'keng' me..juz a small injured at my finger..luckily..
the big mirror in front of the car and the mirror at the side of the drive break into pieces..the car get more serious injured..-.-
i had keep some glass broken pieces..as a memory..erm...after the accident i cant sleep well for few day..always have the nightmare about the accident..omg..but nw feel better..the time fly so fast..two years pass...

傻瓜

我是傻瓜，很傻很傻，自以为事的傻瓜。

如果喜欢一个人会变傻，那我会选择不要去喜欢他。

可是，

我可以选择吗？

感情的事可以说不要就不要吗？

可以说不喜欢就不喜欢吗？
可以说停止就停止吗？

如果可以的话，那谁来教教我，不要再做傻事了？该醒醒了？

我是傻瓜，很傻很傻，每个人都说的傻。

我可以改变吗？

可以不要那么傻吗？

可以醒过来吗？

可以不要脑袋空空，不懂要做什么，好像一副躯壳。

我真的不会想多多了。因为不懂要想什么？同样的话一直飘过脑海，重复播放，一直重复，一直重复。。谁来帮我把这得播放机关掉？让它停止？要怎么做？

好想大哭一场了，但是眼泪不懂跑到哪里去了。。找不到。。

哭过后，可以雨过天晴吗？

好喜欢雨后的彩虹。。

如果

如果所有的一切都没有发生，那我的世界会是怎样的呢？
如果我周围的人都没有出现过，那我会是一个怎样的人呢？
如果发生过的事都没有发生，那我的命运是否就会改变呢？
如果所有我想的东西是对的，那谁来告诉我有什么是错的呢？
如果我想的东西会发生，那谁来帮我阻止它发生呢？
如果 如果 如果 如果 如果。。。。。。
这么多的如果，我却没有答案。我要从哪里拿到答案？谁来告诉我答案？

每次有事，我就会想如果它没发生就好了，可是我能阻止这个如果吗？我不能，因为它已经发生了，我什么都不能做。有时候有些人会说，命运掌握在自己手里，可是，我好像都不能控制自己的命运。我想要的东西很简单，很平凡，但是总是得不到它。难道我的命运就要比别人不平凡吗？我要简单一点的东西都不能吗？那我到底要怎样？？
有些人会说，想要的东西就要自己去追求，去争取，可是，如果那样东西注定不属于我的呢？我一定会争取到吗？我一定会得到吗？得到了后我会开心吗？我会幸福吗？又是一大堆没有答案的问题。

每次心情不好，就会有一大堆‘成年’的问题跑出来，平时开心的自己就会忘记这些问题，今天不开心，问题就来找我了。“不想见你们啦，不要来找我好吗？”

我不要难过。。
(T.T)

快乐的日子

这几天都很开心，到处走走，四处看看，什么地方都想去玩。那天才刚去batu pahat逛街，昨天又到了马六甲走走。哈哈，我还真会跑呢。

和另外三个好朋友去了马六甲的动物园，存、景、丽，真的是麻雀虽小，五脏俱全呢。什么动物都有，老虎大象长颈鹿，狮子猴子大猩猩。什么都有，跟我去过的国家动物园比起来，我觉得马六甲的好玩多咯，虽然马六甲的比较小，可是却可以很靠近地看见那里的动物，国家动物园太大了，动物的笼子很大，所以都没办法近近的看见那些动物。虽然觉得马六甲的动物很可怜，笼子这么小，可是我们可以很靠近它们，真是太爽了。长颈鹿真的好高哦，大笨象真的好大只哦。我们就好像小朋友一样第一次参观动物园似的。四个二十岁的大孩子。。哈哈

过后我们到马六甲的Mahkota百货公司走走，因为我想买过年的新衣。那天在batu pahat都没找到喜欢的。我们的午餐在Seoul Garden解决，真的是太好吃了，本来是决定跟芳她们一起来的，但是。。。。让她们知道肯定被它们砍成十成十块八块的。。:p

买了两件衣服，和一个包包，然后就回家了，回到麻坡，大家都还因为午餐的关系，没什么饿，所以只是去吃了几片蛋糕就回家了。

开心的一天就这样过去了。朋友有时这样联络联络，一起出去吃喝玩乐，真的是很快乐的享受。喜欢这样的回忆，喜欢这样的朋友。。

Finish Exam

haha..happy...finally finish my 1st sem final exam...just finish yesterday...today alr back to hometown..so hapi n relax here...somemore can meet all my friend(but still haven go out with them today lah...too tired) almost everyone back already...some of them really long time din see ler...so miss them..hope can enjoy this holiday with them..haha..but me again to plan smthg to do ler gua..haha..i always the busy 1..
long time din bek ler since start exam..miss mum food(today eat a lot ler)..and many place at muar..this few day must go play ler lah...
after play juz see wat result i get..hope dun be too bad lah...if not nez sem no energy to continue..haha..
juz write till here cos nth can be write ler...
enjoy my holiday..(^.^)

recently...final exam..T.T

quite a long time din update my blog...recently is my exam week..so busy v my exam..
taking 7 subject this sem..total have 18 hour credit..quite many compare with my other frens..everyday having the class..so boring n sleepy..=.=
finally till the final exam..this is juz my first sem for my university life,and of cause this is my 1st exam(those small test not counted lah)..
alr sit for 3 subject start from laz fri day-2/11.
1st subj is hubungan etnik..actually don't know wat this subj is all about..haha..then get the tips from a fren..but i DIN BELIEVE THE TIPS 100%..whose know when the question come out..the 5 ques of the essay is TOTALLY SAME WITH THE TIPS I GET..omg..when i read the ques..i like goin to find a wall...even some of the objective ques are also the same...T.T
so regret i din read n memorised the ans seriously..haiz..
then my second paper is Tamadun Islam dan Tamadun Asia(TITAS)..This subj is really a very boring n very stupid subj..don't know why we need to take tis subj..always not understand wat the lecture say..totally not understand...
then this paper..more omg..senior keep remind us study the pass year paper..do the pass year paper..but i juz study 1 to 2 set..din finish somemore..u noe wat had happen..inside my exam paper nearly 90%of the ques is same v the pass year that i read..but i still din finish study it..really sh*t...
then the ques that i read some still ans wrongly..really stupid lah me...haiz..how to get A???
then the others dun lah..wait i finish juz c how..haiz..difficult ah..

During the exam,this few morning keep raining..then i get some interesting scene..cause of the TITAS exam is having inside the hall with around 100++ ppl, then on that day with the 'heavy' rain, outside the hall is full with umbrella..like selling different kind of umbrella..big, small, green, blue, yellow, cartoon,old fashion...many kinds of umbrella..really a rare scene..


that day goin out to meet my fren who stay here..since there is not bus on saturday so i need to walk to the main gate to take the bus(so far....it take about 20++ minutes..swt)..on the way near the gate i found another nice scene..the ground is full with flower..it look nice when see from far...a few day ago when i m on the bus to the way bek to hostle alr saw this flower(not sure the name) but not enuf time to take the pic so i take it on the day i m goin out..luckily the flower still there...

i like to take pic..hope can catch some picture with full of feeling when other ppl see it will feel touch with that..but 1st i need a camera..i like those slim type digital camera..duno start from when i alr hope can get a slim digital camera..cause i like to go travel..like to catch picture to save as memory...last time bought a canon digital camera..but get the wrong model..the 1 i buy not the type i like..nw Sony have two new model slim & stylish digical cam-T70 & T200(like it so much)..both almost the same..nw still thinking which 1 i would like to buy..my fren had juz bought T70..so envy him..i think i need to find a job when holiday so i juz can buy the cam..not cheap leh....mayb can ask mum support..haha..

Sony T-70

Sony T-200

need to study 1st..hav eto finish my exam juz can start to work mah..kampateh!!